Walking and Talking about Overwhelming Emotions

So it’s official, Freddie is up and moving about. A month ago, he was still cruising, now he’s almost running. This past week has been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions. My mood has been all over the place, it’s all been a bit much.

One minute I’m feeling happy and positive, the next overwhelmed, tired and socially done.

Sometimes it feels like my brain can only take a certain amount in then completely shuts down and goes back into self destruct mode for a few days. Which is both predictable but also extremely irritating.

It can get to a point where it feels like I can’t enjoy the big milestone moments, because I always have a worry, and understanding that my mental health will flip on itself not too long after. There is always an anxious feeling brewing underneath.

Freddie is now 15 months old so slap bang right in the middle of the average age group for walking. I am shocked how confident he suddenly is, and how much more independent he now is. It’s nice being able to stand him up in the middle of the room knowing he’s not instantly going to collapse.

I did read something that the later they walk, the before their balance. It wasn’t wrong at all.

Within a month, Freddie’s balance is so good. Next up is standing up without aid.

All along we’ve said we wanted to do gentle parenting, and so far we have done a sort of hybrid. It can be very exhausting trying to stay calm though. Especially at the moment, the tantrums have started. 

The back arching. The throwing himself on the floor. The hatred of being picked up. The throwing things. All the fun things.

How do you deal with it? How do you stay calm whilst internally screaming? 

On the other side, there’s been a lot of moment this week where Freddie has been so cuddly and loving. It’s like every single day he does something new.

Freddie is learning how to give hugs, and blow kisses which goes without saying is adorable. All he wants to do at the moment is give you things and show you his interests. He is having so many moments where his real, caring, loving personality shines through. 

I’m looking forward to next week, and hopefully being better than this one. 

-Rachael