Drained and exhausted. Two words that sum up a depressive period. I've not been feeling too well the past few days which of course can have an effect on everything else. On top of that today I received some news which wasn't exactly welcome. Both of these things have brought about my most recent bout of depression and feeling drained.
I honestly believe that the tiredness is the worst thing. It just leaves you feeling deflated with no energy to do anything. Even just watching the TV is too much. All I ever want to do when feeling like this is to go back to bed. Problem is though, I know that doesn't actually solve anything.
For me, at least, it's the overthinking that brings on the exhaustion. I tend to make up situations and scenarios in my head and play them all out, often focusing on the worst possible one. In a way, it's a form of protecting myself. I've always seen the negative in things but quite often, I prefer it. If I believe the worst is going to happen, I can't be disappointed. Bad luck certainly seems to follow me around.
Recently the idea of joining a gym and actively doing more exercise has popped up again. Last time I tried getting fitter I did actually feel a bit better both mentally and physically so it has to be worth it. The only issue I have right now is getting the willpower and strength to go out and join. Maybe when I'm less tired. So sometime in the near future.