Category: Day To Day

Looking Back at Older Photos

Looking Back at Older Photos

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The past few weeks I’ve been very very tired. I’m still waiting for blood results, and as it turns out, getting in touch with the doctors is near impossible. Absolutely useless. What with starting a new job and having to try and stay mentally strong my brain is exhausted. I’ve spent some time the past few days looking back at older photos of myself. A warning, this post may be a bit of trigger, I am talking about past suicidal thoughts and feelings. For well over 10 years now I have been fighting depression and anxiety, as documented. It recently…

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Stuck in a Loop

Stuck in a Loop

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It’s yet again been a few minutes since my last post…well more like 2 months… In all honesty it’s been a rather hectic couple of months. I’m not feeling the same I was last time I posted ie down and completely miserable, but I will say my anxiety has increased. I’ve not had an increase in anxiety for a long time. It’s always just been there until recently when the panic attacks and feeling on edge got worse. They’re mostly under control again now but not nice knowing what triggers them. So the main change recently? I left my job….

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It’s always darkest just before the light

It’s always darkest just before the light

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(I wrote this post a few weeks ago…) As I wrote in my last blog post, I am struggling recently. I’m fighting through my latest depressive period. I don’t think this one has been my worst but nevertheless it’s still unsettling and frankly, exhausting. As I write this I am back in isolation as I’ve apparently been in contact with someone who has tested positive for Covid. No idea who though, I haven’t been out of the flat so no idea. I’m stuck inside until the 4th March. Obviously with more time to sit around and do nothing but think,…

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Everlasting Exhaustion

Everlasting Exhaustion

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I knew this week was going to be difficult, and I was right. I am mentally and physically drained. At the moment I’m not getting the best sleep. Last night I was plagued by nightmares, the same one I get around this time of the year. A horrible, graphic nightmare I just don’t need. Obviously with disturbed sleep comes tiredness and with tiredness comes irritability. I’m struggling to keep my brain from going into the usual overdrive. It’s a constant battle. I am fed up doing the same things day in, day out and with no change in sight. Every…

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That Time Of Year Again

That Time Of Year Again

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So it’s that time of year again when I lose all motivation and feel generally down. It must be February! Life It’s always the worst month for me, for obvious reasons. The 21st marks the 19th anniversary of Mum passing away, something that always plays on my mind heavily but more so around this time of year. It’s become the normality for my brain to kind of switch off through February, something I have tried to control but at this point. It’s part of me. Something I have come to accept…I’m just not happy throughout this month, simple as that…

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The First of 2021 – Project365 Beginnings

The First of 2021 – Project365 Beginnings

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So we’ve got through the first week of 2021. And the first week of the third lockdown…It does really feel like we’re just going round and round in circles. It makes you think, how many times can we do the same thing without someone realising it doesn’t work. Repeating the same mistakes never solves problems. I really do believe we need a total lockdown, close everything that isn’t essential, for a month. I have a feeling I’m not alone in feeling extremely anxious and on edge about the rest of this year. It’s got to get better though, somehow. I…

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A New Year

A New Year

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So we’ve finally left 2020 behind. I’m now looking at ways to improve the blog, making it more streamlined and personal. I have decided to do the Project365 again over on my personal Instagram. I did the same last year, and wasn’t planning on starting another but here we are. My idea is to post a weekly blog collating all 7 photos. Some will be more ‘professional’ looking, taken from my cameras, some (most) will be from the phone. If i can improve my phone photography skills that’s another thing I’ll be happy with. Throughout this year I am going…

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Christmas With a Difference

Christmas With a Difference

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This Christmas was always going to be a weird one. It was certainly a different experience for everyone. Granted, I’ve never particularly liked Christmas, the build up and hype just never ever lives up to expectations, call me a scrooge all you like, I’m glad when it’s over. Saying that, I enjoyed my day. I mean, there was food, family and beer…just not all the family I would have liked. This year, for the first real time, I’ve tried to make an extra push on social media for my photography and sales. I think it’s pretty obvious in reality, I…

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Staring at the ceiling

Staring at the ceiling

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To start, once again it’s been a while since the last post…So, whilst a considerable amount has stayed the same, there was one major change! The Big One Matt and me are now engaged! After 8 years together, we’re officially getting married in what will hopefully be an autumn wedding. Autumn is the best season anyway, so why not?! We went to have a look at a few venues before the second lockdown, to get an idea what we want and where. We’re looking at a smaller wedding…partially because we don’t know that many people, and partially because it just…

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Lockdown Laziness

Lockdown Laziness

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It’s been some time since I last checked in here. Again. So many times I’ve thought about writing, thought about editing, thought about advertising and yet so many times I’ve then talked, or rather, thought myself out of it again. A warning in advance, this may be a long post. This whole coronavirus lockdown madness is something most of us have never ever witnessed before, and hopefully never will again. When lockdown started I’m sure everyone went into it with a plan. Get fit, read more, be creative, finish that game that was put on hold ages ago. I know…

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