It’s been a while again.

I’ve been busy and sort of ignoring most social media. It’s got to the point where I’m sick of what everyone else has to say or who has won Love Island etc. I can feel it’s getting closer and closer for me to just deleting various profiles. It’s too much faffing about a lot of the time.

I’ve not really posted that many photography related things anywhere for a while. For me at least i’m at a point, I think, where I’ve created a style I like and a certain type of edit but now I’m fed up. You look at others’ work and it’s all very same-y. It’s boring.

I’ve always said I want to be a photographer. I want to make a name for myself but then, do I really? I’m not entirely sure I’ve got the strength to fight against the norm and make myself that much different. I think I’d be happier if I carried on taking photos, editing them and posting them here. Not fighting for likes and follows on Instagram or Flickr. It gets tedious. One day I’ll be able to look back at my work and think “yes, I’ve improved. I’ve got somewhere” but maybe I need to just slow down with my ideas. I know it’s been 10 years but I just know I’m going nowhere at the moment and especially with the way my mind works.

I’m in a happier place now, I’m starting to learn, and train myself, to take a step back, to take a break from stressful environments. I’m always trying to not push myself too hard because I know deep down I’m only one push too far and I’m back to where I was in April. A very dark place. Somewhere I’m continually fighting to not go back to.

I’ve got a literal boat load of images to get edited and posted including Abbie’s Hen Do, Bodnant Gardens, Boat Museum, RAF Cosford Airshow. That seems like a next week type of problem to fix though.

For now…I’m going to stick the hugely improved No Man’s Sky on the PC and fly around space discovering all sorts of bizarre creatures. If you’re playing the game via Steam let me know!

– Rachael