One Small Step, One Giant Leap and a Few Falls
It’s crazy how quickly toddlers develop and learn new things. One minute they’re doing one thing, the next they’re practically running a marathon.
Mental Clearing and Clarity – Learning About Myself
It’s very strange when you realise you’ve been living a lie, and not being your true self for years. Sometimes though, you need to sit back, think and readjust. This is exactly what I’ve been doing for the past couple of months. I’ve spent a LOT of time just analysing myself and trying to work out who I am and who I want to be. I have recently started therapy again after having a bit of a slip backwards after the birth of Freddie and feeling quite overwhelmed. I find myself getting flustered and frustrated really easily which eventually leads…
Stuck in a Loop
It’s yet again been a few minutes since my last post…well more like 2 months… In all honesty it’s been a rather hectic couple of months. I’m not feeling the same I was last time I posted ie down and completely miserable, but I will say my anxiety has increased. I’ve not had an increase in anxiety for a long time. It’s always just been there until recently when the panic attacks and feeling on edge got worse. They’re mostly under control again now but not nice knowing what triggers them. So the main change recently? I left my job….
That Time Of Year Again
So it’s that time of year again when I lose all motivation and feel generally down. It must be February! Life It’s always the worst month for me, for obvious reasons. The 21st marks the 19th anniversary of Mum passing away, something that always plays on my mind heavily but more so around this time of year. It’s become the normality for my brain to kind of switch off through February, something I have tried to control but at this point. It’s part of me. Something I have come to accept…I’m just not happy throughout this month, simple as that…
Christmas With a Difference
This Christmas was always going to be a weird one. It was certainly a different experience for everyone. Granted, I’ve never particularly liked Christmas, the build up and hype just never ever lives up to expectations, call me a scrooge all you like, I’m glad when it’s over. Saying that, I enjoyed my day. I mean, there was food, family and beer…just not all the family I would have liked. This year, for the first real time, I’ve tried to make an extra push on social media for my photography and sales. I think it’s pretty obvious in reality, I…
Lockdown Laziness
It’s been some time since I last checked in here. Again. So many times I’ve thought about writing, thought about editing, thought about advertising and yet so many times I’ve then talked, or rather, thought myself out of it again. A warning in advance, this may be a long post. This whole coronavirus lockdown madness is something most of us have never ever witnessed before, and hopefully never will again. When lockdown started I’m sure everyone went into it with a plan. Get fit, read more, be creative, finish that game that was put on hold ages ago. I know…
To The Future
I recently moved the website over to Squarespace away from Wordpress. Squarespace seems a much better place for me. The website looks so much better, at least that’s what I think. This is the first post on this platform.
Drained and Exhausted
Drained and exhausted. Two words that sum up a depressive period.
I’ve not been feeling too well the past few days which of course can have an effect on everything else. On top of that today I received some news which wasn’t exactly welcome. Both of these things have brought about my most recent bout of depression and feeling drained.