Time To Talk
It's time to talk day again. It's funny. Every year when this day comes around I can guarantee I'll be in a low, not wanting to talk mood.
Firstly, I'm writing this post from my phone so there may be formatting errors/spelling mistakes until I fix them on the PC later on.
Today, and the past week or so, I find myself in a bit of a slump. Stuck in a rut and doing the same things over and over which really doesn't help my mood.
I've said on Twitter and Instagram (if you're not following me on either then the links are at the end) how I can't concentrate on things at the minute. I'm constantly fighting my own thoughts.
I understand the need to talk and I've had plenty of people offering to listen to me/help me. However for some reason this time my body and brain will not let me do it. When I go to speak about it I can't explain my thought patterns. Nothing comes out.
I'm both enjoying my own company at the moment but also at exactly the same time hating it with a passion. I refuse to give in completely and become a recluse however saying that, staying at home trying to play a game seems perfect right now. I'm catching up on some music I've missed I Prevail, A Day To Remember and Trivium are getting me through today somehow.
I'm going to take this time to post a thank you to everyone who donated for my birthday fundraiser on Facebook for Mind Wirral. Clearly the charity I always choose and very fitting today. I didn't expect to make £10 nevermind £150.
Today I am feeling slightly better, things are slightly clearer. I've got my aromatherapy diffuser going, a fresh wax melt and plenty of coffee and some detox tea. February is always difficult so I'm sure come early March I'll be back to normal. Plus there's a lot to look forward to…new Animal Crossing being the main one (don't care how sad that is. It really is such a good game when feeling anxious and low).
For now, I'm going back to hoovering and playing the new Pokémon game.
Please if you need to talk, do it. Or do as I'm doing and write your thoughts down. You don't need to suffer alone, there are people who want to listen and want to help.
If you think there are people out there who are acting differently and not being themselves, check in. It only takes one person to be there and provide support to make someone feel loved which in turn may just change their outlook.
There is always help out there and most importantly, it's okay to not be okay.
-Rachael